so sometimes I wonder if people can tell when I am seriously hitting on them -- I mean, there are definitely people I will playfully flirt with, but sometimes I wonder if there are people that yes, I do want to kiss a whole bunch, but because I flirt with everyone they can't tell.

or they can tell, they aren't interested, but playful flirting is ( Read more... )

I don't want to get on the plane and go home because then the waveform will collapse and my baby boy will really be gone, not just be reported as dead.

I'm not dumb, I know he's dead, but there is a body waiting to prove it.

and there is so much more today today. we still have to fill the tank, drive to the airport, fly five hours, get picked up at ( Read more... )

it's nearly two am. I took some serotonin, but it's very gentle. I miss her. it's worse, I think, the past week or two. I blame google plus, I keep seeing her, and I don't want to not see her, I just miss her a lot. ive been trying, and succeeding so far. I have left her alone, I have only had one slip of asking about her, but there was no response ( Read more... )